Assuming that the doctors little computer was accurate, we should be seeing our little boy come into the world in 2 months time. Things are definitely starting to sink in and get ‘real’. I think my wife has officially entered the nesting period, she has begun planning out how the nursery is going to be laid out and doing lots of measuring. Which means I get to hold the tapemeasure and nod to whatever suggestions she makes.

While she is busy preparing the house for the baby, I am starting to get nervous about how I am going to educate my son in the ways of the world. Many aspects of my life are heavy influenced by my father, and I want to have that same type of meaningful impact on my son. But how do I do that? How do I best equip him with the tools he will need to tackle problems that I don’t have the answer to, nor may not even have existed for me?

Generally, when I express these concerns to my friends and family they tell me not to worry about it, and that it won’t be an issue for the first couple of years. Going into this whole ‘fatherhood’ thing without some type of idea seems scary and unsettlingly though. So I find myself trying to walk the thin line of being a text book dad and being someone who wants to learn as they go and hope to not screw it up. In the end, I know I will give it my all and hope that he grows up to be a respectable, responsible man.

P.S. Yes, I know it is weird to be worrying about something that will be 18 years in the making, but I attribute it to the fact that I am a first time dad and I can have irrational fears.